LOSE

LOSE

because you don’t live there anymore

you lose nothing

in the moment of creation there's change

when the music has played there’s silence

when the breeze passes there’s stillness

in the laughter

and in plain sight

while the love makers touch

creation matters not

silence is the music

stillness becomes the breeze

to play at laughter

and lose nothing

when moment is creation

there in the play is change

because you don’t live there anymore

you walk and lose nothing

A. MENDOZA, 12/2018

LOSE

LOSE

because you don’t live there anymore

you lose nothing

in the moment of creation there's change

when the music has played there’s silence

when the breeze passes there’s stillness

in the laughter

and in plain sight

while the love makers touch

creation matters not

silence is the music

stillness becomes the breeze

to play at laughter

and lose nothing

when moment is creation

there in the play is change

because you don’t live there anymore

you walk and lose nothing

A. MENDOZA, 12/2018

WINTER SOLSTICE

Winter solstice

in the bright sunlight and the clear desert sky

with no clouds for the sky to paint

save for the water coloring on the mountains

as the sun flows across the landscape

shadowing the cactus making spots

and the leopard that runs across the sands

towards the snow peaks towards the glow

and disappears in light

a brightness running to cover

and blanket twilight with music lights

stars patient in their watch for the moon

stars moving in that slow dance

that feels like love

A. MENDOZA, 12-2018

WINTER SOLSTICE

Winter solstice

in the bright sunlight and the clear desert sky

with no clouds for the sky to paint

save for the water coloring on the mountains

as the sun flows across the landscape

shadowing the cactus making spots

and the leopard that runs across the sands

towards the snow peaks towards the glow

and disappears in light

a brightness running to cover

and blanket twilight with music lights

stars patient in their watch for the moon

stars moving in that slow dance

that feels like love

A. MENDOZA, 12-2018

UNSEEN

The 2 Not 1

unseen

to believe the lies

and not see the lies that are

a conviction by convention

no longer and no shorter

than desire

that want unseen

as it presents loudly enough

the present

a conviction by belief

no longer by desire

like a coin

two sides

and an edge

flip it and catch

open and reveal

everything but the edge

that thing that cuts

loudly it presents

no longer no shorter

a lie of desire

and an unseen self

A. Mendoza 12/2018

UNSEEN

unseen

to believe the lies

and not see the lies that are

a conviction by convention

no longer and no shorter

than desire

that want unseen

as it presents loudly enough

the present

a conviction by belief

no longer by desire

like a coin

two sides

and an edge

flip it and catch

open and reveal

everything but the edge

that thing that cuts

loudly it presents

no longer no shorter

a lie of desire

and an unseen self

A. Mendoza 12/2018

ZEN IN THE CITY

ZEN IN THE CITY

standing over a microwave

as watch over a coffeepot

the third feast all mine

a chill of fall

awaiting winter

in the warmth

clear to cold

as bright to ice

the movement underneath

in the stillness

a sigh

amazement

the steam floats

in the quiet wrap

air and water listen

sound becomes

a drone rhythm

where the music fills

instead of self

 truly hear

when silence speaks

warmth that wraps

floating like silence

in a sigh of amazement

in the clear cold and the bright ice

where there is air and water

instead of self

A. MENDOZA, NOVEMBER, 2018

ZEN IN THE CITY

ZEN IN THE CITY

standing over a microwave

as watch over a coffeepot

the third feast all mine

a chill of fall

awaiting winter

in the warmth

clear to cold

as bright to ice

the movement underneath

in the stillness

a sigh

amazement

the steam floats

in the quiet wrap

air and water listen

sound becomes

a drone rhythm

where the music fills

instead of self

 truly hear

when silence speaks

warmth that wraps

floating like silence

in a sigh of amazement

in the clear cold and the bright ice

where there is air and water

instead of self

A. MENDOZA, NOVEMBER, 2018

STEPS

STEPS

the Lord loves

doesn't command

he doesn't need to

to hear a command

to search for lie

to search for the evil one

order is not command

truth is not command

strength is not command

love is order

love is truth

love is strength

you can lie in a command

and cannot in love

in your freewill you can search

in love you find

love is the command

that you don’t have to search

that you can hear

above the noise of a lie

come to love

find strength

live in love

know truth

find the steps

and the order they fall

in not command

in a search

in love hear

how the Lord loves

A. MENDOZA, November 2018

STEPS

STEPS

the Lord loves

doesn't command

he doesn't need to

to hear a command

to search for lie

to search for the evil one

order is not command

truth is not command

strength is not command

love is order

love is truth

love is strength

you can lie in a command

and cannot in love

in your freewill you can search

in love you find

love is the command

that you don’t have to search

that you can hear

above the noise of a lie

come to love

find strength

live in love

know truth

find the steps

and the order they fall

in not command

in a search

in love hear

how the Lord loves

A. MENDOZA, November 2018

a page

The page and I exchange places

an allegory of a dream

twinned mirrors

ordinal directions

coordinating a dance

as gentle as matched silks

fragrant as honeysuckle

a floating scent

rippling across the breeze

ordinal mirrors

a dream dance

a page

exchanging places

to match the silks

twinned mirrors

fragrant dreams

of ordinal directions

the allegory of a page

that exchange places

in the self

twinned mirrors

A. MENDOZA, 11-5-2018

a page

The page and I exchange places

an allegory of a dream

twinned mirrors

ordinal directions

coordinating a dance

as gentle as matched silks

fragrant as honeysuckle

a floating scent

rippling across the breeze

ordinal mirrors

a dream dance

a page

exchanging places

to match the silks

twinned mirrors

fragrant dreams

of ordinal directions

the allegory of a page

that exchange places

in the self

twinned mirrors

A. MENDOZA, 11-5-2018

1:48 AM

 October  Desert

the music

the rhythm

the movement

the time

there is so much of

thinking in a dream

therapy for the sleep

alive in a world

fortunate

by the Lord’s grace

in love received

sentenced

to witness only what is seen

aware

to the whole

of a part

thinking in a dream

therapy for the sleep

moving to sound

dancing with joy

walking along

as a floating breeze

in the chill of autumn

there is so much of

received movement

and fortunate

music

rhythm in the time

as love received

alive in the world

the sentence

A. MENDOZA, OCTOBER 2018

1:48 AM

 October  Desert

the music

the rhythm

the movement

the time

there is so much of

thinking in a dream

therapy for the sleep

alive in a world

fortunate

by the Lord’s grace

in love received

sentenced

to witness only what is seen

aware

to the whole

of a part

thinking in a dream

therapy for the sleep

moving to sound

dancing with joy

walking along

as a floating breeze

in the chill of autumn

there is so much of

received movement

and fortunate

music

rhythm in the time

as love received

alive in the world

the sentence

A. MENDOZA, OCTOBER 2018

FATIGUE

IN AN EVENING FATIGUE

a motion escapes

like an ember

red hot and smokeless

that glow fading

to red from white

the single light 

before darkness

touch a be burnt

breath and relight

listening to that smoking

the evidence and an escape

and the from the ember 

motion before darkness

breath and touch

and inhale the smoking evidence

of the escape

a dancing light

 a glowing touch

a glow moving

from red to white

before the darkness

evading sound

a glow 

a light

an escape

a motion

an ember

the only light

smokeless

against the darkness

to touch and relight

with breath

finding evidence

that is the sound 

before darkness

spread as a vision

noticed

the embers dance

A. Mendoza, 10/2018

FATIGUE

IN AN EVENING FATIGUE

a motion escapes

like an ember

red hot and smokeless

that glow fading

to red from white

the single light 

before darkness

touch a be burnt

breath and relight

listening to that smoking

the evidence and an escape

and the from the ember 

motion before darkness

breath and touch

and inhale the smoking evidence

of the escape

a dancing light

 a glowing touch

a glow moving

from red to white

before the darkness

evading sound

a glow 

a light

an escape

a motion

an ember

the only light

smokeless

against the darkness

to touch and relight

with breath

finding evidence

that is the sound 

before darkness

spread as a vision

noticed

the embers dance

A. Mendoza, 10/2018