Showing posts with label #writing. Show all posts
Showing posts with label #writing. Show all posts

7/05/2022

There Is Nothing To Understand

 there is nothing to understand


the fletch

the shaft

from the tip

to the flight

a pointed direction

an intended target

the air between

along intention

and the sound of movement

and the sound of impact

preparations

the beginnings and the ends

we hold the bow

and sting it's sounds

with intents and results

which are the real moments?

when are the real moments?

which is origin?

where is moments

moment?

to understand nothing


6/10/2020

BREEZE


Breeze


not wanting to do anything
even sleep is too much
eyelids too weak to close
thought becomes tiresome
slowing breath conserves strength
darkness is rest for the eyes
just waiting for a breeze

a moon for a light
witnessing stars
in the comfort of night
suddenly the nothingness
and that odd jolt
awakens the open eyes
to silence

starlight witnessing eternity moving
in a single breath
any wanting too much
becoming tiresome thought
resting open eyes
not wanting to do anything
just waiting for a breeze

A. Mendoza
6-10-2020



6/07/2020

VALLEY

VALLEY
  

where all the air
and the winds will whip
water and snow to ice
while we sequester in place

where the fires fly over the mountains
smoke painted on backdrops of flame
and a world renewed in death, destruction
defining mortality

rebirthed so living fire may feed again
inhaling wind
exhaling flame
breathing as living things do

where silence is more death than peace
and the sun, the clouds, the mountains
stand apart competing
for a night so they may hide

where under the cover of stars
alone with the moon
wind whispering to the the music of mountains 
with a blanket of clouds

an accusation instead 
of a question
do you love
 in the night

it is so hard to see
from the valley
so you must travel
to the mountain

a.mendoza 6-2020



9/21/2019

An Opposite of Music

An Opposite of Music


a carafe of coffee steaming
the water for tea boiling

sometimes making up your mind is not an option

the familiar color
and comfort of aromas

 surrounded and comforted
glass reveals the familiar

not twin
no duality

missing a janus entanglement

a breeze and scent
paired yet separate
an opposite of music

A. Mendoza, Sept 2019






4/02/2019

HOG

hedgehog harmony
 the hegemony of hope

piglet persuasion
 with cuteness

that beauty in the pig
 hogging charm

without the porcine influence
 rolling in the mud

in growth to become
 the boar

with tusks that swing
 to dig, to scratch, to uncover

harmony

A. Mendoza  4/20119

 

 

11/21/2018

STEPS






STEPS

the Lord loves
doesn't command
he doesn't need to

to hear a command
to search for lie
to search for the evil one

order is not command
truth is not command
strength is not command

love is order
love is truth
love is strength

you can lie in a command
and cannot in love

in your freewill you can search
in love you find

love is the command
that you don’t have to search
that you can hear
above the noise of a lie

come to love
find strength

live in love
know truth

find the steps
and the order they fall

in not command
in a search
in love hear
how the Lord loves

A. MENDOZA, November 2018






STEPS






STEPS

the Lord loves
doesn't command
he doesn't need to

to hear a command
to search for lie
to search for the evil one

order is not command
truth is not command
strength is not command

love is order
love is truth
love is strength

you can lie in a command
and cannot in love

in your freewill you can search
in love you find

love is the command
that you don’t have to search
that you can hear
above the noise of a lie

come to love
find strength

live in love
know truth

find the steps
and the order they fall

in not command
in a search
in love hear
how the Lord loves

A. MENDOZA, November 2018






9/12/2018

IF

IF


if
finding an end 
not knowing
what was the beginning

why only matters 
if
you care that it does
ignoring truth

ignorance is never dicovered
disclosure is not a light
if
the shade is drawn

an end in itself
has the means
of a mean that's pointless 
if


A. Mendoza, 2018



IF

IF


if
finding an end 
not knowing
what was the beginning

why only matters 
if
you care that it does
ignoring truth

ignorance is never dicovered
disclosure is not a light
if
the shade is drawn

an end in itself
has the means
of a mean that's pointless 
if


A. Mendoza, 2018



12/31/2017

THE EVE


THE EVE


sleeping by evening
up by AM
busy at PM

eating at evening
night reserved to watch
and see the sunrise

to witness night to day
living for the moments
of sunsets

the builder knew what he was doing
now following the ARK
and witnessing the dome
moving at the speed of eternity
catching every moment from the speed of light

in stillness
realizing
the Earth does revolve around us
and so do the stars
so many stars revolving around eternity
what does eternity revolve around?

And the moments
of sunset
waiting for the dome
of night
just to see
a sunrise
today
the Eve
12-31

A. Mendoza, 2017



THE EVE


THE EVE


sleeping by evening
up by AM
busy at PM

eating at evening
night reserved to watch
and see the sunrise

to witness night to day
living for the moments
of sunsets

the builder knew what he was doing
now following the ARK
and witnessing the dome
moving at the speed of eternity
catching every moment from the speed of light

in stillness
realizing
the Earth does revolve around us
and so do the stars
so many stars revolving around eternity
what does eternity revolve around?

And the moments
of sunset
waiting for the dome
of night
just to see
a sunrise
today
the Eve
12-31

A. Mendoza, 2017



12/24/2017

Short Story



New Year’s Penance


On a New Year’s Eve he walks into the casino at sunset.
Dressed well but in out of date clothes the tall, gray haired man steps up to the bar and orders a drink.
After getting his order and while sipping on ridiculously expensive scotch walks around the parties in the casino while sipping with great relish the magic contents of his crystal glass.
As he finishes his drink he walks up to a black-jack table and lays three chips on three spots to place his first bets.

He wins more than loses and starts to gather a healthy stack of chips.
Then, tips the dealer and the cocktail waitress generously finishes his drink and collecting his winnings
and walks back to the bar to order another.
And now, with a bag full of chips in one hand and the expensive scotch in the other he tours amonst the partying revelers around the tables, finishes it , and then steps up to a poker table.
He again, wins more than losses.
As the countdown riotously is announced at midnight everyone breaks into song with auld lang syne he stops and takes in the scene and with a smile tips his glass to the adjoining guests for awhile and then returns to the tables.
He still wins more than loses ’til dawn.

It was a long night and his chips have stacked up and there was a buzz about “The old guy” who’s been having a good run at the tables.
The casino owner having walked over to see what was happening suddenly stops and turns ashen at the sight of the man.
Hello old friend” he greets the casino owner.
Been awhile” he continues.
Where have you been?” The casino owner was not used to being so confused.
I thought you died” in his surprize his voice had become very loud.
Doing penance” replied the man.
What?”says the casino owner visibly shaken.
Putting a hand full of chips into a pocket and pulling an envelope out of his jacket he signs the receipt for the check and places the check into the envelope.
The man walks over to the desk with a stunned casino owner following and generously tips the clerk with instructions to deliver the envelope to the address.
What are you doing?” In a near panic the casino owner watched the courier take the envelope.
The winnings are going to some charities” Smiles the man.
But, you never leave anything on the table” The casino owner was well out of his comfort zone.
Penance?”
Smiling the man walks out of the casino, then, disappears.


A. Mendoza, 12- 2017




Short Story



New Year’s Penance


On a New Year’s Eve he walks into the casino at sunset.
Dressed well but in out of date clothes the tall, gray haired man steps up to the bar and orders a drink.
After getting his order and while sipping on ridiculously expensive scotch walks around the parties in the casino while sipping with great relish the magic contents of his crystal glass.
As he finishes his drink he walks up to a black-jack table and lays three chips on three spots to place his first bets.

He wins more than loses and starts to gather a healthy stack of chips.
Then, tips the dealer and the cocktail waitress generously finishes his drink and collecting his winnings
and walks back to the bar to order another.
And now, with a bag full of chips in one hand and the expensive scotch in the other he tours amonst the partying revelers around the tables, finishes it , and then steps up to a poker table.
He again, wins more than losses.
As the countdown riotously is announced at midnight everyone breaks into song with auld lang syne he stops and takes in the scene and with a smile tips his glass to the adjoining guests for awhile and then returns to the tables.
He still wins more than loses ’til dawn.

It was a long night and his chips have stacked up and there was a buzz about “The old guy” who’s been having a good run at the tables.
The casino owner having walked over to see what was happening suddenly stops and turns ashen at the sight of the man.
Hello old friend” he greets the casino owner.
Been awhile” he continues.
Where have you been?” The casino owner was not used to being so confused.
I thought you died” in his surprize his voice had become very loud.
Doing penance” replied the man.
What?”says the casino owner visibly shaken.
Putting a hand full of chips into a pocket and pulling an envelope out of his jacket he signs the receipt for the check and places the check into the envelope.
The man walks over to the desk with a stunned casino owner following and generously tips the clerk with instructions to deliver the envelope to the address.
What are you doing?” In a near panic the casino owner watched the courier take the envelope.
The winnings are going to some charities” Smiles the man.
But, you never leave anything on the table” The casino owner was well out of his comfort zone.
Penance?”
Smiling the man walks out of the casino, then, disappears.


A. Mendoza, 12- 2017




10/12/2017

PEOPLE ARE WOMEN TOO


PEOPLE ARE WOMEN TOO


Look out for unexpectedness
and in the consistency of the the usual
that is magic

just because you wander
not ignoring what is obvious
and the common

taking the worst ideas
drinking them under the table
making a sensible hangover

and the common so obvious
that consistency of magic
so usual

just because you wander
that consistency of the unexpectedness
that usual magic

drinking it under the table
ignoring the common obvious
that people are women too

usual magic of the worst idea
unexpected obvious
from drinking under the table

a consistency unexpected
ignoring the drinking
of magic

for the hangover


A. MENDOZA, 2017








PEOPLE ARE WOMEN TOO


PEOPLE ARE WOMEN TOO


Look out for unexpectedness
and in the consistency of the the usual
that is magic

just because you wander
not ignoring what is obvious
and the common

taking the worst ideas
drinking them under the table
making a sensible hangover

and the common so obvious
that consistency of magic
so usual

just because you wander
that consistency of the unexpectedness
that usual magic

drinking it under the table
ignoring the common obvious
that people are women too

usual magic of the worst idea
unexpected obvious
from drinking under the table

a consistency unexpected
ignoring the drinking
of magic

for the hangover


A. MENDOZA, 2017








8/19/2017

Silence Speaks


Silence Speaks



the blue and the cotton
a calculation
the fleeting moments
amongst an eternity
and silence speaks

hear
and here
spoken by sight
rustles day
and into the night

along the moments
as whispers
that finding touch
as a silence
amongst the open hands

here
and hear
a calculation
rustles in night
amongst an eternity
of fleeting moments

silence speaks



A. MENDOZA, 2017



Silence Speaks


Silence Speaks



the blue and the cotton
a calculation
the fleeting moments
amongst an eternity
and silence speaks

hear
and here
spoken by sight
rustles day
and into the night

along the moments
as whispers
that finding touch
as a silence
amongst the open hands

here
and hear
a calculation
rustles in night
amongst an eternity
of fleeting moments

silence speaks



A. MENDOZA, 2017



6/25/2017

BEAUTY

BEAUTY


to see another reflection 
more beautiful than ourselves

looking outward to what we see

recognizing that as what is part of 
who we are 


we see beauty 
recognizing that 
we are also beautiful

resisting beauty 
denies our humanity

condemning beauty 
embraces that hatred

that is why 
the first actions of hated 
seeks 
to destroy beauty

that is why 
the last actions of beauty 
is to destroy hated

because even in hatred 
beauty seeks itself

to see 
a reflection 
more beautiful 


A. MENDOZA, 2017

BEAUTY

BEAUTY


to see another reflection 
more beautiful than ourselves

looking outward to what we see

recognizing that as what is part of 
who we are 


we see beauty 
recognizing that 
we are also beautiful

resisting beauty 
denies our humanity

condemning beauty 
embraces that hatred

that is why 
the first actions of hated 
seeks 
to destroy beauty

that is why 
the last actions of beauty 
is to destroy hated

because even in hatred 
beauty seeks itself

to see 
a reflection 
more beautiful 


A. MENDOZA, 2017